September 2009
8 posts
yeah
it’s tiring, isn’t it.
the minute he wants you you’re down to want him too. but when he doesn’t want you, you still want him. it’s not fair. i dont want to like him anymore. i’m tired of being overly excited nad overly sad.
and for you, s. yes. ill suck your fucking dick. why? because i’m crazy. because i don’t care anymore.
and i want my...
really now?
I broke up with him. I couldn’t keep doing that to him. I couldn’t keep doing it to myself.
And now I miss him more then ever. Why do I always want somethign I can have? But I would still have the same problems. He still doesn’t have anything going for his life and for himself, nor do i feel sexually attracted to him, and i’m tired of helping him and don’t have...
and then
it was over. just like that.
he doesn’t understand. he thinks it’s a break. i wish it was a break. i can’t keep doing this to myself. i love him and want him back already, but i can’t. it’s over. i’m done.
i love you, d.
so much. i’ll never forget you, and i’ll always miss you.
17 tags
the worst part is.
how do i not feel bad for what I have been doing? how do I not want to tell him? how do i want to stop and never do it again? what am i doing and where is this going?
because i told you i like you. and i’m sure you like me too. even though you can’t admit it, even though you sound unsure when you finally agreed. you didn’t have to say yes, you know. you didn’t have to....
wow.
i don’t do things like this. i’m not that kind of girl
wake up call. i’m going to put 110% into d and i’s relationship. i owe it to him. that’s the least i owe to him. i don’t think i love him anymore and i don’t think i want to be with him. but there’s a big part of me that begs to differ. so, i’m going to fight for the love i had with him...
he kissed me.
what the fuck am i doing.