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If you some how find this, and think it's me. Don't tell me you know. Don't tell anyone you know. Because this is something I wish I could let my friends see... but they can't. I love life. I'm taking this thing one step a time because I don't know what i'm doing. If you want to read along and follow my confusion, then go right ahead.

it’s just the way we are tied in

Posted 1 year ago
he didn’t respond. is that supposed to surprise me? i’m not too terribly sad. i wish he would have. i would have liked to talk to him again. liked to believe that maybe my fairy tale night could happen again in the near future. that maybe he was still thinking about me and that maybe i wasn’t just a random fuck. but i was. and he was for me, too. i didn’t fall in love with him. i fell in lust with him. lust with a pinch of love… okay maybe a big dash of it. maybe those eyes kinda tricked me. maybe i fell in love, but just a little. it’s okay though. it’s all okay. i just want to see him again. it will happen.

but maybe not, and that’s okay.
- crush
- disappointment
- lust
- want