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If you some how find this, and think it's me. Don't tell me you know. Don't tell anyone you know. Because this is something I wish I could let my friends see... but they can't. I love life. I'm taking this thing one step a time because I don't know what i'm doing. If you want to read along and follow my confusion, then go right ahead.

hmm..

Posted 2 years ago

the feelings i have for you are hard to explain. i feel like you do have them back… but you keep using me and i see that. i see that clearly. but i know… there has to be something in your head that tells you that you do really have feelings for me. the way you kiss me shows me that. but who am i to judge how someone kisses… it’s all just to get some. thats all that everyone wants from me. and i continue to give it. all i want is someone to like me. someone to care for me, someone that i like back. i just want to cuddle and fall asleep in their arms. i want them to not want me to go. i want them to pull me back when i leave. he does that. but hes leaving again.

just leave.

just leave and please please please don’t say goodbye. it’ll make it easier. you’ve seen me once since you’ve been back, just to fuck. you don’t miss me and you won’t miss me. so just leave.

i won’t tell you goodbye. i won’t ask when you come home. i won’t. you don’t have to worry. i’ll let you be.

just get out. forget me. i’ll try and do the same.